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My name is Sharon. I'm American & live in Texas. When I was a
child, I was taught to worship God at the appropriate times- Christmas, Easter,
& Need Help Day. We went to church but we weren't crazy enough to let
that affect our lifestyle or anything. After all people who base their lives
around God are annoying & need therapy right? So, this was our way &
our family seemed quite pleased with it until I hit puberty. I wanted to
know why God created me & no one could give me a satisfactory answer.
Go through this life for what? A house, a car , & 2.5 children did not
seem like a good reason to me. I needed to do something remarkable to give
my life purpose & then everyone would remember me. I had trouble motivating
myself when I realized I cared very little what others thought of me. I decided
to eat ,drink & be merry because I did not have a clue. I had dedicated
myself to thrills & merriment AND I WAS GOOD AT IT. My parents declared
it Need Help Day and began to pull out their only defence- the Bible. I decided
it was time to be on my own my parents did not understand my right to party
& they were so boring. I left with 5 dollars & went to live with
flower children. Life was just a big party. Then , I began to feel sorry
for my parents at Christ- mas time & went home. They had a wonderful
surprise planned for me- a Christian Reform school just for me! I was soon
packed, shipped and on my way. I arrived at the door of this home for wayward
girls & was led into an office to meet the evangelist that ran the ministry
that ran the home." What's your name ?'' ,he said as he extended a friendly
hand shake. I told him my name & shook his hand. Then, he managed to
surprise me by biting my thumb, " Don,t you give me that HIPPY handshake!
We'll soon run the devil out of you.!" I made the mistake of saying,"Can
I leave with him?". The rest of the day was spent showing me my bed &
telling me the rules.Bars on the windows,surrounded by a barbed wire fence,
intercoms in every room so that THEY could hear you, radio bible broadcast
in the morning at 5, 15 minutes of every class in bible study, then home
to bible study ,then more radio bible broadcast then 2hrs to bathe &
get ready for tomorrow. I knew the first ten minutes I was there that I would
make a break for it at the first possible opportunity. The next day I jumped
the barbed wire fence & booked it. I took hitched a ride with a stranger
,who to my horror turned out to be one of the dreaded WORKERS. They drove
me right back to the home & I was ushered in to PAPA'S office for punishment.
I found out that Papa was a man about 6'5 , middle aged. He asked me my name.
I was angry at this point and responded with," Do you talk to God?" He said,
"Yes, quite often." Isaid," Then why don't you ask him what my name is?"
I was beaten severly with a black jack by a 24 year old man that wanted to
please Christ by putting me in my place. I never gave him the pleasure of
seeing me cry. Amazingly enough, I am very grateful for all of these events
because this was the beginning of my search for the true church of Jesus
having painfully become aware that this was definitely not it. Iwas forced
to read the Bible & read it I did, not for them-for me . Iwas searching
for truth for myself. I asked Jesus to save me and come into my heart. Everything
was supposed to be wonderful after that , but everything wasn't. Great, I
was going to heaven now(everyone assured me of that) BUT WHY WAS I CREATED
IN THE FIRST PLACE? AND GOD,WHY WON'T YOU LET ME TELL YOU MY PROBLEMS -WHY
DO I HAVE TO GO THROUGH JESUS?JESUS IS WONDERFUL BUT I NEED YOU. I was finally
released from the home back to the loving home of my family. They were eating
pig meat & it bothered me. I told them the Bible says in Deuteronomy
not to eat pigs. They said I was driving them crazy ,had become a religious
fanatic & it was plainly not normal to worry about what God thinks ALL
THE TIME! I was asked by my parents to find someplace else to live. I was
15 years old. I searched for the pure teachings of Jesus I knew belief in
Jesus was not enough-I need guidance and answers. I led a very lonely life
even though I was surrounded by people.I went to many many many churches
searhing always searching. I never considered Islam as a possibility because
Christian preachers had already warned us of THOSE HEATHEN MUSLIMS(now here's
the funny part) AND HOW THEY FORCE YOU INTO THEIR RELIGION. All the lies
they told me about Islam kept me from even putting Islam on the shelf as
a possibility. Preachers tell tall tales but they have no affect on the plans
of Allah. I read the Bible for many years because I wanted to be sure of
which Christian Religion I should join. I had heard many ministers claiming
to have the Holy Spirit guiding them, and they were all teaching different
doctrines. I came to realize that ANYONE could claim almost anything as Biblical
teaching and I understood why, when I came across too many contradictions
and mistakes to print here. The modern day Bible was collected and binded
together in the 16th century.
It was supervised by King James who had control of the church at that time.
Books of the Bible we have today are books which agreed with the interpretation
of the scholars of a particular school of thought. Thechapters they did not
feel expressed their point of view were not included in the Bible and called
fraudulent. The average man never got a look at those chapters because the
matters of the heart were decided for him by the church council which was
funtioning under the political wheel of the government. I finally threw my
hands in the air & gave up because of these Bible verses. ISAIH 46:3
I will not meet thee as a man. ISAIH 46:8 neither shall I know the loss of
children. HEBREWS 2:18 For in that he himself hath suffered being tempted
he is able to soccour them that are tempted. JAMES 1:13 Let no man say when
he is tempted I am tempted of God for God cannot be tempted of evil,
neither tempteth he any man. 1 JOHN 3:2 Beloved now are we the sons of God.
1JOHN 3:6 Whosover abideth in him sinneth not . Whosover sinneth hath not
seen him neither known him. 1JOHN 1:8 If we say we have no sin we decieve
ourselves and the truth is not in us. MATTHEW 15:24 I am not sent but unto
the lost sheep of the house of Israel (He did not say he was sent unto all
mankind) MATTHEW 19:17 And he said unto them,"Why callest thou me good? There
is none good but one, that is God. MARK 6:4 (Here Jesus calls himself a prophet
I was told that God was always there that he was not made. We are told that
Jesus is made in HEBREWS 2:9 and HEBREWS 1: 4 ECCLESIASTES 3:19 so that man
hath no preeminence above a beast. GENESIS 1:28 .. and have dominion over
every living thing that moveth upon the earth.
ECCLESIASTES 9:5 ..the dead know not anything neither have they anymore a
reward. PSALMS 19:11 Moreover by them is thy servant warned and in the keeping
of them there is great reward. ECCLESIASTES 10:19 ..but money answereth all
things. ISAIH 52:3 ..and ye shall be redeemed without money. 1ST TIMOTHY
6:10 For the Love of money is the root of all evil. DEUTERONOMY 6:4 Hear
O Israel the lord our God is one Lord PSALMS 82:6 I have said ye are gods
and all of you are children of the Most High HEBREWS 2:9 But we see Jesus
who was made a little lower than the angels. HEBREWS 1:2 Spoken to us by
his son.. being made so much better than the angels. GENESIS 32:30 I saw
God face to face I JOHN 4:12 no man hath seen God at any time PROVERBS 20:1
Wine is a mocker strong drink is raging and whosoever is decieved thereby
is not wise. 1 TIMOTHY 5:23 Drink no longer water but use a little wine for
thy stomachs sake and thine often infirmities. GENESIS 1:22 And god blessed
them saying be fruitful and multiply. 1 CORINTHIANS 7:1 it is good for a
man not to touch a woman 2ndTIMOTHY 3:16 All scripture is given by inspiration
of God. 1CORINTHIANS 7:6 and I speak this by permission and not of commandment
1 CORINTHIANS She is happier if she so abide after my judgement and I think
also that I have the spirit of God.
PHILLIPIANS 2:6 Who being in the form of God thought it not robbery to be
equal to God. JOHN 5:57 Ye have neither heard his voice at anytime or seen
his shape. 2nd CORINTHIANS 11:8 I robbed other churches (SAYS PAUL) 1JOHN
3:9 Whosover is born of God doth not commit sin JOHN 5:30 I can of mine ownself
do nothing JOHN 8: 42 Jesus said unto them if God were your father ye would
love me for I proceeded forth and came from God neither came I of myself,
but he sent me.
AND THE LIST GOES ON.....THE LIST GOES ON. Is there any wonder I was bewildered? I became convinced that God hated me because he would not let me find the truth.About this time an acquaintance sent me a pamphlet about Islam. She was American like me. I felt so sorry for the poor stupid misled thing. I was quite sure she was weak minded & had let her Arab husband brain wash her. I opened the pamphlet because I was sure it was stupid &there is nothing better to make fun of than Muslims. The pamphlet said THINK VERY CAREFULLY ABOUT THE TRINITY. I had never been exposed to anything but arab boozers & muslims that were not practising their religion. Those people were so easy to put down. I would tell them look at you YOU can't even believe in your own religion enough to practice it. The guy who wrote this pamphlet was a different sort of Arab - to my dismay not an easy target. I stopped reading in the middle of the book because I knew HE KNOWS THE TRUTH! I can't believe this ! God has given the truth to the Muslims! They are Arabs! I'm not an Arab! This is a disaster! I cannot be a Muslim everyone I know hates Muslims! I will have to dress like those women & take off my beloved makeup! How could you do this to me God? Then I thought I'd play a game with God ...Well, they might not have the truth & I'm not sure they have the truth so I'll just forget about all of this. I had been on my own since age 15 & was now 26 . I was lonely. I prayed to God to send me a husband. I asked God for a religios man (I had a Christian man in mind when I placed this request) I made a solemn promise to God to marry the very next man who asked me.(I was going to take it as a sign) Allah has never failed to answer my requests. The next man who asked me to marry him was Palestinian-he was 2 things I did not want in a man . He was an Arab & he was Muslim. However, he was different than any man I'd ever met. He did not drink .I complained to God - I was con vinced god sent me an Arab Muslim to ask me for marriage because he hated me. I was now angry with God & decided to marry this muslim since God will not help me. However, I felt about this man's background- I have to say it was love at first sight. The most surprising thing was he seemed to know everything I needed. It was the first time I felt like another human being loved me. We married.Our marriage was horrible I told him not to ever ever discuss his religion with me & he didn't. I put him through a lot of misery in the beginning.Then, one night he brought a Quran home to me. He handed it to me explaing to me that it was a holy book told me I could read it if I wanted to. My response in front of him was. Why should I read that ? Just set it over there I don't want it. I waited until he went to bed & was asleep. I prayed "Oh God show me whether or not this book is true. If the book is true I will accept it. If it is false show me." I opened the Quran and randomly read:
Proclaim! (or Read!) In the name Of thy Lord and Cherisher, Who created-
Created man, out of A leech like clot: Proclaim! And thy Lord Is Most Bountiful,-
He Who taught (The use of) the Pen,- Taught man that Which he knew not
I felt strangely some new emotion - I flipped the book open to another spot-
I read:
There will be those of the people of the book who when they see the truth
they will recognise it.
I quite suddenly became aware of the fact that I was touching something very
Holy for the first time. I was in AWE. I knew I was holding the very words
of God. Then I realized for the first time that God did not hate me because
he let me find this miracle. I felt JOY .I had found the treasure! I had
finally found the truth! Then I felt ashamed that I had been so arrogant
towards my Creator & Merciful Allah. I knew I had been given Mercy because
I found the truth when I wasn't even looking for it. Allah in His Mercy sent
it to a poor blind fool.I sat transfixed for quite some time rejoicing in
my new found treasure. It was 4 am . Who cares?! I have found a miracle -I
ran to wake my husband. "Honey!Wake up! I need to tell you something you
don't know! My huband woke up & said " I have to work tomorrow what are
you talking about?" "That book you gave me is a miracle from God!" "Why aren't
you guys screaming from the mountaintops about this book!" My husband
smiled,"Every ayah(verse) has it's miracle- but not everyone wants to know
about it." We have 5 children now,and have been married fifteen years. Islam
is my way of life. Now, when rednecks harrass me about why I'm wearing this
thing on my head I have to smile & be patient -I was once that arrogant
redneck. I understand where they are coming from BUT DON' T WISH TO RETURN.
You may not believe it : THERE IS NO GOD BUT ALLAH MUHAMMED IS HIS
MESSENGER
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